I feel drained tonight...I am tired of giving so much away with so little left for myself. I delight in loving others, in sharing with them and being with them. But sometimes I think life asks too much. And I accept it's seductive plea. I give it all until there is nothing left for me...And once again it's 10:00 and I haven't studied for my test tomorrow or written my paper for my Personality class tomorrow or cleaned the house or played with the dogs or finished my lesson plans or even taken a shower after my run.
God laid on my heart the Proverbs 31 woman. He spoke about her in His word as a guide for how we as women should live our lives. So often I get caught up in what the world tells me my life should look like. I usually don't even realize the influences in my life until I compare my attitudes to those of Christ and find them lacking. Tonight I feel like God is whispering to me to leave it be, to leave it behind and to follow Him. I need to gain my approval from Him and Him alone. He is the one I need to strive to please, the one who delights in my success.
"She extends her hand to the poor, And she stretches out her hands to the needy." (Proverbs 31:20)
"Strength and dignity are her clothing, And she smiles at the future. She opens her mouth in wisdom, And the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. " (Proverbs 31:25 and 26)
"Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised. Give her the product of her hands, And let her works praise her in the gates." (Prov 31:30 and 31)
This semester ends in three weeks. I will see my husband in four weeks. I need to calm down and finish strong.
What do you do when life crashes in on you? How do you save enough of yourself for yourself?